_TBF_ [03.28.2008]_

This will serve as many things: Admission, Reflection, Loss and Gain, But above all this will be what I’ve always given.. Truth.

If you spend your life looking at the bad side of life eventually that’s all you ever see. Hope become hopelessness and you spend your days trying to debate why have life if this is all we have to look forward to. You read about how this will kill you today, or tomorrow or five years down the road, 10, 20, etc. It’s almost like we’re at the point where your better off running to a hospital, walking into a delivery room, going up to a newborn and saying “Fuck you! This is as good as it’s ever going to get and then you’re fucked!” and walking out feeling a little better, of course I’d remember to end with a “Mazel Tov” to the parents, but that’s cause I’m thoughtful like that. In the course of the Factor I look to the world and show off a lot of hypocrisy, lack of common sense, and all around bullshit, and I’ll admit that my perception has been altered because of it.

Trying to come back after being sick and with so much personal drama isn’t easy, again my perception has been altered and I realize that I can’t keep writing if I don’t try to enjoy at least something positive in life. In my absence the ladies as well have been working on their own lives outside the Factor and I know they love to write but like me they need time to enjoy the good in their lives before they start back with writing. I guess what it comes down to is this. I know there’s still a lot to say and I still want to write but I need to make sure I get out and enjoy living my life at the same time. So the Factor is done for now. There’s always going to be a need for the outspoken and the voice of the people will always be our greatest weapon. So get up and start talking.

Until Next Time.. and trust me, THERE WILL BE A NEXT TIME!

Brian Rodriguez Marie Angel Lady Temptress

THE BRIAN FACTOR